Sunday, April 13, 2014

My Choice

“Wanderer, your footsteps are the road, and nothing more; wanderer, there is no road, the road is made by walking. By walking one makes the road, and upon glancing behind one sees the path that never will be trod again. Wanderer, there is no road -- Only wakes upon the sea.” - from Campos de Castilla by Antonio Machado

My Choice

In August of 2012 I left the corporate world behind. It wasn’t an easy decision. I love the people I was working with and had grown to think of them less as co-workers than as good friends who I happened to work with. But life had conspired to give me a way out and a good reason to make the choice. First I finally met my life’s partner. Someone who met me on every level, supported me, loved me. It didn’t matter that we were not young anymore. It only mattered that we were finally together and looking forward to being together as long as fate would let us. Then I had gotten as close to death’s door as a person can by accidentally contracting a disease which for me there was likely no cure. When I eventually passed through the most critical time it appeared we would only be able to control it. I read Carlos Casteneda’s book long ago, “A Yaqui Way of Knowledge”. Whether it be true or false the words “Let death be your ally” resounded in my mind. Yes, in this sense I could let death be my ally by letting it show me how precious life is and that it wasn’t forever. I decided, along with my partner, that no matter the consequence it was time to make a move.
So in August of 2012 we packed up kit, caboodle, dogs, cats, horses and chickens and moved to a remote ranch nestled along the eastern flanks of the Mendocino National Forest and began our new life. We weren’t silly about it. We planned it and had a job waiting when we got there. But the job was easy and even though paying very little it was paying something. The job allowed us to work on things we had always dreamed about but never had enough time to focus on.
Now we’ve been here 1 year and 7 months and I can safely say that while it’s had its challenges they haven’t been big challenges. I think the thing that has helped us is that we planned the move and had a spot to land. We also had carefully considered what type of situation would really fit us and we didn’t move until we had exactly that. That is to say, we engaged in a thought process and we had patience. We also picked something that was practical, not outlandish. Something that worked for our stage of life and fitness level. In addition to that we made sure that we had enough cushion - though not lavish - to carry us through in case we came upon unexpected expenditures.
It’s not that difficult to make a change but you have to be ready for it, committed to it, have no doubts or at least doubts that are not insurmountable and then have a plan. Then it’s simply a matter of working the plan and having patience to see it through. I could have done this years ago but not really because the basic ingredients were not there. People always do what they’d rather do than not do. It’s as simple as that. So if you’re beating yourself up about something please relax. You’ll do what you need to do when you need to do it. Just make sure whatever you’re doing right now supports you in achieving your goal. To know what your real goal is you’re going to have to stop the madness for a moment, quiet your mind and do some thinking. The universe is really there to support you. Just let it.

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