"Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." - Winston Churchill
We lesser and more fortunate mortals have the luxury of spiraling into despair while spending the day glued to the telly doing absolutely nothing about our situation.
I've been in a zone of doing nothing. I can't seem to get anything done. I made myself start a painting because I got disgusted with myself for the weeks of staring off into space feeling a vague je ne sais quoi whatever. I also haven't been writing up to my normal output level. Nothing seems interesting. It's complete poppycock, of course. This I know. There are more interesting topics to write about than there are hours in the day. I don't know what's the matter with me. All I can do is observe and wait for it to go away. I believe enthusiasm will grace my life pretty soon. It's just around that blind corner.
Who knows how big it is? The blind corner I mean.
When I inventory my life I see many positive things going on. Even with this blarsted ennui. We're living a light carbon footprint. We grow a lot of our own food and what we don't grow we get from local farmers and ranchers. We're water conservationists. It's of necessity in many ways and yet we bow to the discipline and embrace it without any speck of resentment and denial. We're not materialistic in the sense that we don't consume a lot of "product". We make many of the items we need with materials we have on hand, scrounge or recycle. When we need to buy something we choose wisely and nearly all the time we can purchase used. But when we can't we remember that quality is remembered long after price is forgotten. Then we take care of what we purchase so it will last us a long, long time. We're never sick. Living out here we're not exposed to contagious disease.
Yep. It's all good.
And yet I'm going through a period where I don't feel all that inspired or productive. So I guess I'll just hang with that feeling, not beat myself up and keep one eye open and one foot moving (thank you, Ruth F. S.) so the machinery doesn't freeze up and be harder to start once the feeling passes.
I'm sure you all know exactly what I mean.